The author knows me so well

"My relationship with my body is like that of an egomaniac with a self-esteem problem. Mostly I think about myself and how much I suck. There are rare moments when I walk around for hours and think I look amazing. Either I feel great about myself or...."

".... Then I catch a side view of myself in a store window or a department store mirror and I'm plunged into despair."

- Palmer, Liza. From "Conversations with the fat girl".

The above book rocks. The thoughts of the girl mirrored mine in so many ways. But it also made me sad that those are my thoughts, you know?
Change change change.. been saying that since 10 years ago. Maybe it's time I finally start to change.
I quote from an extremely famous writer (haha), Yongquan, Chen. "The start is always the hardest."

I should get past the hardest part, ya?

alright alright. I am being emo now. but im definitely not emo 24/7, if you get what I mean.
Time for bed. Tomorrow's monday again -.-