oh great. just calculated my $$ and hahhahahahhaha.
Dont think I even have enough for my next sem sch fees.. piangz

Okay. It seems that I'm kinda neglecting my blog le HAAA.
No time no time...
kinda sian diao and worried cos of money these few days..

School fees + savings plan fees + repay of poly fees + return parents $$ + bills + food + transport...
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. where got enough to pay for my tw fees @ the end of the yr!!! I must go.. cos it might be the last overseas trip with mochi for the next 2.5yrs haa.

Unless my co. raises my pay.
Or I find a job with better pay.
OR i get a pt job (with better pay).

anyway has any money sucking ideas?
sigh =(

I want to give myself a pat on my back (:
For not shedding a single tear after it happened.
And for being brave enough to stop what might happen.

To be fair, the other party was the one who started talking cos I didnt know where to start lol.
But ya, despite that, I am still proud of myself :D
COS I FREAKING ACTED NORMAL THROUGHOUT.
Then I realised that I WAS NORMAL! hahaha (duh).
I actually felt relieved more than anything, yo.

The sadness didnt come until after, but yea, thanks to those whom I talked to
(who were online at that time lar.)
You people rockkkkkkkkkk.

And a huge thanks to those who had been there to listen to my nonsenses and craps.
I dont usually sit down and tell people my worries and problems ya.
So please feel honoured. Haaaa.
pH is moving on..

p.s: I was at this sports council yesterday night and I suddenly want to go swimming!!! WHO WANTS TO GO? night swimming please. cos my hideous size cant be shown in daylight. arbo ppl will choke from chlorine and die on the spot.

Do I possess the courage?

Everything should have ended long time ago.
Prolong it = suffers more.

It is easy to do nothing..
The courage is to DO something about it.

Am I brave enough?

I am glad we met up today :)

And thanks to K.N for your concern.
Very the touched lor. hahahahha.

我不想念

歌手：刘若英

"某个城 某条街 某一条小巷
某一个晚上 某阁楼 微微灯光
某个人 默默关上 某心房 某扇窗
跟没有人 说晚安
夜 从前从来没这麽长
床 荒凉的就像没有边疆
失眠 是枕头之上无尽的流浪
天 永远不亮"


"某空港 某车站 某个下一站
某一扇车窗 某风景 唤醒惆怅
某南方 摇摇晃晃 某海洋 某艘船
谁没妄想 有天堂
当 人活成了一棵仙人掌
掌 心的泪却还是滚烫
每当 抚摸那些天真致命伤"


"我不想念 不想念 那时光
那些快乐 和悲伤 却总在我身旁
我只愿长夜将尽天快亮
让想念的歌不再唱
让想念的歌不再伤"

Fab lyrics by 阿信 (:


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Sometimes, I feel that I have full control over myself.
Things that I want to do are all done. Feelings that I want to tuck into a dark corner of my mind.. are done in a blink of an eye.

And sometimes, I feel that I have zero control over myself.
Every single cell in my body says "NO", yet I dont heed my own advice.
Extremely helpless. Cos it's like a war between myself and myself.

I miss my teenage years. lol.

Anyway ah bu and I were talking about how one yr just passes by like that.. Soon I'll be in yr2 of uni liao. haaaa.
Cant wait for these 3 years to be over.. working ft and studying pt is making me bad tempered, helpless, tired, poor and UGLY ):

Random thoughts

So many things undone...
and all due in one week's time.
Sigh.

someone help me...

I wanna press the undo button haha.
But where is it?

Dream job.. but not up to it.
Try? or dont try?

I loveeeeeeeeeee gossip girls omg.
Someone pls watch 3rd season like, SOON, and discuss with me =]

work is piling up.. and up.. and up..
and instead of helping, u are bringing our? my moral lower.
Counsel my foot. dont u know.. u are the reason why things end up this way? sigh.

I need to escape.

Interesting new found friend. very interesting.
Turns my beliefs upside down haha.

I miss FULL TIME schooling days.

I need $$ to pay off the poly and uni fees.

ok time to stop emo-ing and sleep.
BYE xD

The cramp is getting worse T.T

Someone kill me pleaseeeee

sigh.
jia you ph.

The best friday of this year (so far)

And so, he finally sees my point and things are back to normal (:
you have no idea HOW GLAD I AM!!
Despite all that happened, I still want us to be buddies =)
nth more.

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Woke up at 2pm today :D
Okay la in between I woke up, replied sms, and fell asleep.
WHAT A GOOD FRIDAY :DDD
BUT... seeing how hard my sissy is working on her sch work is bugging me to START on mine as well.. :(
Tonight. I promise.

I WANNA EAT 85market de food!! Tang Yuan~~~ PORRIDGE~~~~
=(


Oh and do read THIS BLOG when you have the time. No time also must read ok! The way he thinks is incredible (: