历史考试前夕- 梁文福

this is a very cute song haha. though i dont know most of the characters cos my history SUCKS.

如果秦始皇烧书都烧完
歌 我不必读到三点半
词 如果周公真的忙着治天下
转 何必不断催我入梦乡

音 三闾大夫不投汨罗江
魁 卖粽子老王生活怎么办
网 如果楚霸王当年不到乌江
隔壁班刘邦不会这么嚣张

西施不浣纱 昭君不和番
现代的古典美人做何打算
如果刘备哭不出诸葛亮
会不会闹出一阵剧本荒

只看过薛丁山 偏要考安禄山
知道冯宝宝她演过杨玉环
若非十二金牌将岳飞来调返
今天还吃不吃到油条香

我吃过月饼当然知道朱元璋
吃榴梿知道郑和下西洋
胡金铨的戏里听过东西厂
看金庸小说知道袁崇焕

只叹林则徐烧鸦片烧不完
西太后偏偏相信义和团
珍妃不该嫁给那个光绪皇
几千年等到一个孙中山
　
万里长城长 没有历史长
考试题目比那丝路还弯
五胡乱华乱 我的脑筋更乱
心情比那个八国联军慌

多少年的改变已经很习惯
多少次革命总是革不完
谢天谢地近代史老师讲不完
下一代历史考试不敢想像

Think i havent blogged in awhile?
haha.

Okay since I cant do any work now due to the medicine making me drowsy = i cant think schwork stuffs, i shall blog abit...

This thu is the last proj deadline liao. then examsssss. then PARTYYYYY in dec yoo.
After months of dilemma, I've decided not to go taiwan.
Save e $$ for my next sem school fees ba.
and my iphone4-which-till-now-i-havent-gotten *inserts roar-ing sound*

16 nov. anymore delays I AM GONNA DIG MAIZEL DELA OUT FROM SINGTEL AND BEAT HER UP!
for the 3-mth delay and the false hopes.
yes i still remember her name :) I forgot the name of the 小白脸 who was rude to me at the singtel counter though *shrugs* not worth it to remember anyway... =/
But I remember him saying "madam, I am going to release your phone to other customers now."

First mistake, little white face. is. calling. me. madam.
when u wanna reject a customer, call MISS, no matter how old they look like *errhmms and i dont look THAT OLD OKIES =x*

2nd mistake, you dont tell someone who is pek chek tt u are releasing her long awaited phone to other customers. that's just WRONG. My blood pressure just shot up by 1million after he said that to me. with a SMIRK.



ok la the smirk maybe is imagined by yours truly due to too much anger. but stilllllllll.....


(eh i havent complained abt this here hor? bad bad memory)


but thanks so much to Rose jaffar from Singtel.
Excellent customer service (y).
But aiya since no one reads this blog, I shall write an official thank you letter to her AFTER i get my phone. no phone, no thank you letter =/.

anyway ppl have asked me why I SO want an iphone.
It's not because of the trend blahblahblah. I seldom follow trends, if u realise.. it's cos it's smth tt i've considered long and hard (since starting of 3Gs) and decided to get it :)

anyway, 15more days to 16nov.
and oh yar, IF i do see the same small white face at the counter (YES I REMEMBER HIS FACE), im gonna rub my da bian in his face.



just kidding. i dont even dare to touch my own da bian lor =/
ok time to sleep.
hope can finish proj tmrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
byes byes!

Mr. Darcy: You must know... surely, you must know it was all for you. You are too generous to trifle with me. I believe you spoke with my aunt last night, and it has taught me to hope as I'd scarcely allowed myself before. If your feelings are still what they were last April, tell me so at once. My affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence me forever. If, however, your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on.

- Pride and Prejudice, 2005.

omg.
That show has no doubt hit one of my FAVOURITES :D
I watched it twice in 3 days.
this is how much i like it. hahha.
I will watch again lo. aft my exams =x

wao. nearly one mth without any updates here.
Think that's the longest hiatus so far >.< The reason is cos i've been busy tweeting than blogging. heh.

Life has been set to repetitive mode - work, bitch about work, school, assignments, outings with friends, work, bitch about work, school.... you get the idea.

Oh ok, one additional thing is jogging sessions with @resa0712 and @chenyongquan. DAMN NOW I AM BLOGGING LIKE I AM TWEETING o.o
And though we've only had 1 jogging session so far and i dont know how many more I can last (oopss =/), I am really grateful to the 2 of them for putting in the effort to help me. It's cos of people like them that makes this world a much better place to live in :)) And I really dont want to disappoint them so I promise I will try to run as much as I can, ok? I wanna be like this guy name BEN who took oneyr plus to slim down by running haha.

*To clarify, I also have other friends who try to help! @tiffanyMyLaoPo especially. but our schedules always clash =( NEH MIND TIFF! once IF i can jog faster I will catch up with your schedule k!!!!. HAHHAA~

But first, I need to control my diet first. which sadly, i'm failing terribly =(
How to do it when there are SO much good food around? =/

Sissy saw my mochi friends on Tuesday and she commented "how can you stand going out with them? All of them are slim and/or small size!" And then it struck me that that never occurred to me before cos i've been around them almost half my life and am already used to it o.o

Which is a bad thing IMO cos I will never be self-conscious in front of them (being the only big sized one) = I will continue eating instead of trying to slim down!!!!! PLUS, when we go to places like newyork newyork, I can't bring myself to eat salad (WHAT IS THAT?!?!?!) and vegetables (OMG HORROR) while they indulge themselves in something wonderfully named "mozzerella mushroom cheese chicken cutlet" (totally not their fault cos they are slim, REMEMBER?).

So I guess the first step is to have self control.
By self control, I mean pinching myself or stabbing my stomach with a knife/fork whenever I try to order MozzerellaMushroomCheeseChickenCutlet instead of a boring, plain, tasteless salad. ok I think I just made salad sounds like something bad. (maybe a vulgarity).

To replace F*** with S****:

What the SALAD!
SALAD-ing HELL!
SALAD YOU!

ok the last one sounds terribly weird and erms. kinky? yucks.

My point is, I should eat more at home and only drink plain water when I am out with them. hoho. can save more money for my tw trip, IF I AM STILL GOING, that is.

Alright. that's all k thnx bye.
Time for lunch =/

The past few weeks had been...
TORTUROUS.

Was on the verge of tears a couple of times, and I actually cried once.
Due to WORK T.T
and SCHOOL T.T

Hari Raya = more work. Plus project deadlines all within the same period.
How to juggle when they both demand a major portion of my time?
Sigh.

Ah well, those who bombed me with comments like "schooling pt + ft work is not easy! Think thrice!" before I started school ALL knew what they were talking about.
haha. Certainly not easy.

I've gotten two of my lowest marks since the starting of my deg studies one yr ago. Both lowest marks are in this semester.

This should serve as a wake up call to focus on School instead of work.
Never again...

O.T can ruin my future

Once in awhile, we have to torture ourselves to appreciate our mundane and peaceful life.
THAT, is what I did today.
Torture myself, I mean.

No, I didnt cut myself la pleaseeee.
Even if I did, my thick fats will probably hinder the knife's way to the vein.
Blessing in disguise, huh?

I only extracted a tooth.
Sounds easy and un-tortured, right?




NO!

The dentist injected 3x anesthesia and left me to sit outside while it took effect and numbed my mouth.
Everyone said that it's supposed to hurt..but eh it didnt for me leh. probably cos I got thick-skinned gums haha.

While waiting, this lady went in to extract her front tooth.
It was done within like, 10mins lor. Dont know why hers so fast but mine so bloody (pun intended) long.
But the point is, she came out with TEARS in her EYES.
and ta-da. that got me started. I turned to my mom (YES I BROUGHT MY MOM ALONG COS I WAS SCARED, ANY PROBLEM? =/) and wailed "SHE IS IN PAIN!! SHE IS CRYING!! HOW????!!!!!!!!"

and in the midst of everything, the nurse came out and saw my drama -.-
So embarrassing canss.

Then, the plucking began.
She used this pliers lookalike thing to TWIST and SHAKE my tooth from left to right. and then twisted ROUND and ROUND.
She thinks that it's what? Tooth-tango session is it?

Then, I felt PAIN o.o
According to the ejecting tooth Standard Operating Procedure (SOP), you are supposed to feel smth moving (the tooth, duh) but u are NOT supposed to feel pain.
So i halted the process and the dentist was surprised that I could still feel pain.
Thus, she injected a 4th needle into my mouth (at the nerve.. *shudders*)

And she changed pliers and continue pulling.
Stil felt abit of pain but bearable la.
and through it all, i kept thinking that IF I came out of everything alive, I will confess my undying love to *er-hmm* and I will have a happily-ever-after life with him- with one tooth missing.

Oh well, it finally came out and I was so relieved!
I then quipped to the dentist that it felt like I just gave birth to a child T.T
Both she and my mom laughed and said that giving birth is more painful. OMGFAINTS*
and guess what? my tooth is bigger than other ppl's!
SIZE = big.
tooth also = big.
ah well.

After 2hrs plus, I could feel myself slowly turning into a vampire cos i consumed SO MUCH blood that it's probably illegal.
Then the anesthesia wore off and the real pain begins.
Mommy and papa kept telling me it's normal, but I'm still feeling scared that the tooth extract has caused its neighbours to be scared and threatened to jump out of my mouth as well.

I could practically feel them shivering in my mouth, which explains the pain i've been feeling for the past 6 hrs -.-
but not bad leh. i still can go eat salmon with my frens. heh.
All will be well ba.
Just hope that the pain will be gone soon =(

OK TIME TO SLEEP BYES.

I am neither pretty.
Nor slim.
I dont even have a good figure.
And my character is not even what I would consider good.

Yet I must have done something right in this or previous life..

To have such great friends (:

Fate brought and hold us together for the past 10 yrs. Here is to the next 10 yrs, Mochi!!!
my mommy says "如果你再跟这群朋友出国， 我会非常放心". lol.


And of cos, not forgetting the other equally awesome friends I have!
YOU GUYS ROCK MY WORLD TOO :)


ok, just a spear of the moment kind of thankful speech i wish to blog about :)

Brother is going NS in less than a week =(
Cannot wait to see him with NIL hair on his head. bwahahhaha.
but ME IS GONNA MISS HIM!!!!!!!!!!
Especially when there are insects in my room or I need his help! =X

okay la he will be home during weekends. Hopefully as often as possible.

Anyone wanna place bets whether my mom will cry? xD

OHhhh..i cant wait for our short getaway!!!!!!!!!
Definitely a much needed break before I start my proj chiong-ing period.
2 marketing mods this sem =(
One of which with my shuai ge hehe.
WISH ME LUCKKKK~~

SUper pissed with myself now.
I sent the wrong stuffs to another dept and here I am, back in office, to re-send the correct stuffs to them.

@#$%^&*()

Not only my movie was disrupted, but I CANT EAT ASTON BECAUSE OF THIS!
ROARRRRRRRR.

ok Step up Street Dance 3D's storyline is predictable.
but love the dance moves and music :D

OK TIME TO GO EAT WITH MY FRIENDS.
BYE!

Just had a fantastic phone call with my old friend Qx.
Can't believe it had been 8 years since we first knew and quarreled with each other. HAHA.

Love long-lasting friendships to the max :)

可不可以爱我 - 卢学叡

为什麽如此的安静
为什麽明明想靠近 却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定 努力开拓话题
最后却溃不成军

为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里 最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛 怎麽都是你

你可不可以爱我 可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑能告一段落

你可不可以爱我 可不可以看我
反正看或不看 我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德 拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我 快乐还是寂寞


为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里 最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛 怎麽都是你

你可不可以爱我 可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过 告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑能告一段落

你可不可以爱我 可不可以看我
反正看或不看 我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德 拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我 快乐还是寂寞

想念燃烧个不停
我快只剩灰烬
你是我的呼吸

你可不可以爱我 可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过 告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑能告一段落

你可不可以爱我 可不可以看我
我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德 拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我 能给我什麽
快乐还是寂寞



Very nice song! Introduced to me by *SURPRISE!* Joyce.
For those who dont know, Joyce is my super ang mo pai colleague who is very into english songs. But once in a purple moon, she will suddenly sprout some line from some Mandarin song she heard somewhere, usually pronounced wrongly. LOL.
Then my colleagues and/or I will start googling the one-liner lyrics to find the song she was referring to.

And the above is one of them :D
To ex-MCR colleagues: I bet u guys missing Joyce already huh? LOLL.

Anyways, still stuck in the office.
Argh.
Tonight is supposed to be "beautify ph night" de lor.
ROARRRR.

And today will go down the history of pH's UN-kiasu-ism.
Because. I. Rejected. A. Free. Movie. For. No. Reason.
First time in my whole entire career life at MCR okies.
Heh.

Okay rest enough liao. back to wooorrrrrk!

I can't believe how I used to grin like a fool when I talked to you.
Heh.
Things changed. I've changed.

HAVE I MATURED?
hope not. lol.

SG Flyer with the family today.
FUN! Ah bu was too scared of height to stand near the glass doors and windows.
Buahahahhahaah.
No pics cos Sissy hasnt uploaded yet ahhahaha. I was too lazy to bring my low batt cam out.

Gotta sleep early later and wake up for WC finals at 230am ^^
Tomorrow will be a zombified day, I can already smell it -.0

Havent watched SATC series in more than a week! arghs. I better catch up before school starts :(
2 more weeks and my life will be back to chionging projs liao =(

okay time to bathe and sleep.
Byes

:D

:D
Originally uploaded by purpleqoo

Thanks Cheryl for the belated bday present!! <3 it loads!
I'm hugging it now haha!
Now, I have to decide whether to leave it at home or put it in office.
Hmm.

Is this fate or what?

5 years ago, I met an incredibly wonderful and amazing girl during my internship.
I'm sure not many of you know, but I couldn't click with anyone at my internship workplace.
No, not that they aren't nice people. They are, in fact, extremely nice and generous and helpful people. Especially my supervisor. One of the bestiest I've had so far sia.!

We just couldnt click and till today, I'm still searching my brains for the reasons.
Is it because I was too quiet? maybe.
Or because I felt intimidated by them and didn't dare to talk to anyone of them? Kinda true.
Or because of the age gap (??). Not really I think.
Or no common topic? Ya I think so.

Okay anyways, this girl totally saved my social life during internship.
She was same age as me, but from another department. We met by chance, and became fast and close friends. For awhile, she was the only person (in the company), that I can really be "myself" to. I can still remember how much I looooove talking to her cos we can click so well :) She really encouraged me and made me feel that "hey, I can accomplish things, too."

The sad thing is that she left for uni after a few months, and we never keep in contact after that.
Okay lar we're in each other's msn and facebook and friendster, but we never talked after that :(

- 5 years later -


We met by chance, AGAIN! It was during lunch when my colleagues and I were looking for seats in the canteen. And then BOOOM! There she was in front of me! I couldnt recognise her at first because she has this coooool hairstyle now heh. but oMG IT IS HER. She has graduated from uni and is working in one of the departments in the company.

IS THIS FATE OR WHAT???? (:

Soooooo glad to see her! I am so gonna meet up with her for lunch one of these days!
Let's hope "one of these days" really arrive (:

After 18 days, a 12min chat.
hurhur. maybe I can come up with some toto numbers out of this and win some $$ for my tw trip and next sem's school fees.

I feel.. at peace. happier.
Maybe this is how it should be (:

Anyways, I was freaking pek chek cos I was short of $200 for my school fees.
Nearly pulled hair out ---- then, Esther reminded me that THE GARMENT $200 IS IN TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Omigosh I am EXTREMELY HAPPY that the money comes in at this perfect time =)
GARMENT 万岁*kowtows*

After this sat, I am going to have peanuts left in my savings + spending accounts cos of the school fees. *blows nose into hankie* BUTTTTTTTTTTTT, I am SO proud of myself for not borrowing from parents for this upcoming sem's school fees ((((:

Which means there might be hope for some $$ for tw trip!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT HAS TO BE ON OKAY!! CHENY! U READING THIS????? =/

12 days of not talking.
ah well..
Guess you dont feel a thing at all.

Life goes on......

And so the air-con is installed today :)
2k down. omg. but cold cold days coming up!!!
Poor mommy.. busy from morning till now >.<
Bro and i bought her fav nuts for her hahahhaha.

_______________

Sissy is thinking of applying HDB with her bf, aka future bro-in-law.
WTF.
Im suddenly so pressurized and suffocated and i feel so SHI BAI.
I DONT KNOW WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay fine, i do know why.
cos she is freaking gonna apply flat = get married = settle down whereas ME?
bf-less and fat and NO ONE WANTS :(
OMGOMGOMG. I need express slim down program!!!!!!!!

TOMORROW GO JOG! ONZ!!!!

I need a haircut!!

To the MCR gang

Dear all,

I love you guys. Really. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU.
Maggie
Pauline
Xin Ru
Caryn
Melissa
Chie Ling
Elaine
Cai Ling

And I have thought long and hard before I decided to write this here today cos I know some of you do read my blog.

The thing is.. (most of) you got to stop making fun of me before I get really pissed.
You may think I am making a mountain out of molehill... that you are just "teasing".. but everything has its limits.

I, have my limits, and I, am reaching my limits real soon.

I do understand that sometimes it is really funny lar. Like i do stupid things and all...
I just hope, u all will stop making fun of my size.
Because, it is not helping me. AT ALL.

You know, my sec sch friends also make fun of my size and my weight too. but i never, ever get mad at them.
Because, they know how to 适可而止.

Whereas, I am sorry to say this.. (most of) you guys don't.. Especially that saturday when you all totally slammed me in front of the new colleagues and Cleo.. I mean, within ourselves I still can 忍.. but i seriously feel it's quite bad of you all to do this in front of others.

You may say Elaine and Melissa are treated same way as well.. but think lar. Is it really same?
You may say that it is fun to poke at me and I'm wad xie xin that makes you all laugh and it's my honour, but hey, it's ME you are making fun of, not you. Of cos you will think it's funny and fun and HAHAHHAHA PH IS SO FAT.

I am not angry.. just tired of laughing along when I feel hurt inside.
Sometimes I will think, "why go to gatherings.. in the end you all will just make jokes out of my size and laugh and be happy.. but I am not happy at all."

Elaine, you should know what I mean right. Cos you did feel the same way as well.

I hope none of you will get offended by this entry.
If you do, then I guess you can't accept my point of view and my feelings.


p.s: pls do not say things like "DEN GO JIAN FEI SO WE WUN SAY U ANYMORE LAR!". if you do, then you are really missing the point of this entry.

Thanks.

Letters to Juliet - Spoiler

The following is the letter that Sophie wrote to Claire - which made me cry.

"'What' and ‘if’ two words as nonthreatening
as words come. But put
them together side-by-side and they
have the power to haunt you for the
rest of your life: ‘What if?'..."

"I don't know how your story ended.
But I know that if what you felt
then was love - true love - then
it's never too late. If it was true
then it why wouldn't it be true
now? You need only the courage to
follow your heart..."

"I don't know what a love like that
feels like... a love to leave loved
ones for, a love to cross oceans
for... but I'd like to believe if I
ever felt it. I'd have the courage
to seize it. I hope you had the
courage to seize it, Claire. And if
you didn't, I hope one day that you
will."


Hmm.. what if?

I really need to control my temper.
Especially in front of the dog.
control, pH.

The author knows me so well

"My relationship with my body is like that of an egomaniac with a self-esteem problem. Mostly I think about myself and how much I suck. There are rare moments when I walk around for hours and think I look amazing. Either I feel great about myself or...."

".... Then I catch a side view of myself in a store window or a department store mirror and I'm plunged into despair."

- Palmer, Liza. From "Conversations with the fat girl".

The above book rocks. The thoughts of the girl mirrored mine in so many ways. But it also made me sad that those are my thoughts, you know?
Change change change.. been saying that since 10 years ago. Maybe it's time I finally start to change.
I quote from an extremely famous writer (haha), Yongquan, Chen. "The start is always the hardest."

I should get past the hardest part, ya?

alright alright. I am being emo now. but im definitely not emo 24/7, if you get what I mean.
Time for bed. Tomorrow's monday again -.-

Oh well.
Our beliefs are too different.
You may think it's weird why i am acting this way.
But I AM thinking that it is weird and rude of you to act that way.
*shrugs*
Guess it is not meant to be.

Thank you

One year flew past just like that - AGAIN -.-
23yrs old is no joke yo. But I couldnt have survive the past one year without all of you.. and I wanna take this time to say THANKS :)

First on my list is of cos, parents.
We survived the family ordeal in nov, and became a stronger family after that. Thanks to both of you for all the help rendered in the past one year, including lending me $$ from your old age funds to pay for my school fees :) And giving us money when u tio 4D or toto, heh. Dear Ah bu, even though you nag 24/7, and i talk back all the time, you know I do love you alot, dont you? As for papa, you rocksssss. I know u dote on us alot alot <3 and i love u alot more for that. THANKS for offering to lend me $$ to my yr end tw trip though you dont have alot of $$ yourself (: Appreciate it loads and am very very touched *sniff*. And thanks for all the talks and advices you've both given me. LOVE YOU BOTH MUCH MUCH! xoxo

2) Siblings.
Okay the two of you have grown up (some) in the past year, and we (sissy and I) have quarreled lesser in the past year xD. Am very proud of my lil bro for doing so well in school and being so matured about so many things (: and for lil sissy for being so happy and well - though I still dont understand WHY SHE LOVES JAEJEONG SO MUCH. he is so plastic argh pukes. I am v.proud to call both of you my siblings. and may we have lesser quarrels and more happiness!

3) kY.
Thanks, bestie, for taking time out of your busy schedule for me :) and listening to my complaints and problems and rubbish. And understanding the plight I was in and looking at things from my point of view and agreeing on some of the things that I said - even though we both know what I did was WRONG =p <3 u much much!

4) yQ.
YOU, are a true gem. I'm sure many have told you that, but you really are. Thanks SOOOOO much for all the time you were there for me to complain and talk to. Thanks for being just there to listen and commenting at the right time. Thanks for being so upfront and direct with your comments. and thanks thanks thanks for listening to me go on and on and on and on about a certain someone(s). heh.

5) Viv.
Thanks for being SOOO.. YOU all these years. and being there when i need someone to talk to. Thanks for all the sacrifices you make for me despite your daxiaojie character =Pp and I REALLY wanna thank you for the bday card you made for my 21st bday. everytime i see it i cant help but wonder if you REALLY made it. it's so unlike you to mk that!!!! DAMN TOUCHED CANS. HAHAHHAHA. <3 you bestie.

6) Resa & Yw.
YOU TWO ROCKSSS. Thanks for all the fun and laughter we had during outings. and resa, thanks for brightening my life with your *erhmms* profanities and job woes - i am happier knowing that WE ARE ALL SUFFERING TOGETHER SOB. HAHHAHAHA. Yw, you will join us too, I hope =P

7) Jason & RL.
Thanks BRoTHERS for all the fun and laughter during "guys nights out". And for being SO gossipy when i have something to share xD OH AND FOR asking me to slim down (though I havent done anything to slim down YET. hahahha). More guy outings yeah?

8) Kit.
YOU are a real gem tooooo! Thanks, my ex-lesbian for being there all the time whenever I need you to =) Thanks for all the advices and sharing my craps and nonsense and laughter and sadness. I LUB YOU!!!!

9) Jies, Tiff, Nat
THANKS to the 3 of you for always being there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jies, now that you are back, we can meet up often and i can complain more stuffs to you le!! and tiff and nat.. come back soon k =( loads of things to catch up and I dont know how to type in emails haahha... tiff i know i still owe u a story!! Miss u two loads <333.

10) Cheryl (and dan =p)
THANKS DAN FOR INTRODUCING such a lovely, sweet (ok la not so sweet hehe), cute, wonderful girl into my life <3. No, I am not marrying her cos i am not les. hahaha. ONG QI WEI LETS GO OUT SOON YEAH? and dan pls go out with us aft u are back. been ages since we catch up!!!!

11) Jessy mama
THANKS for being such a good schmate and MAMA :D YOU ROCKSSSSS. Thanks for all the time u put me up at your house while we chiong-ed projs. AND for helping me with my assignments (ie. FA DB hehe). THANKS MAMA!!!!!!!!!! <3333

12) Xin Ru
You, are one tiny girl with a HUGEEEEE heart. and i hearts you lots for it. Thanks for covering my shitsssss all these while - throughout nov exam period and the recent exam period. AND AND AND for your help all these while. AND for being there for me for non-work stuffs. I know what you said about the emails and the FOOD are for my own good. (: LUBS U LOTS LOTS!!!!!

13) Maggie,Esther,Bee Lian,Serene,Cai Zhu,Cai Ling,Ai Nee,Jeffriene,Xavier,Jeff- the lunch gang
Thanks for being there all these while and listening to my "stories" and complaints heh. I love to complain HOR? Thanks for brightening up my work life. without you guys is dull dull dull yo. and THANKS FOR THE LAUGHTER :D

14) Ex-MCRcolleagues
Thanks for all the help given too!!! esp caryn!!!!! SEE U ALL AT CHALET!!!

15) YLKK
Though we dont know each other for a long time, thanks for being such a great elder bro =) YOU ARE A GREAT EXAMPLE of how it is like to have a "kor kor". HAHA THANKS! AND I look forward to your apple pie treat yo! and and and the HELP IN ECONS!! HAHHAHAHHA.

16) Senior LD
YOU ROCK. seriously. u never fail to amaze me with ur drum playing, keyboard playing and guitar playing. and thanks for going to play ai qing de mo yang as my bday present :D CANT WAIT TO HEAR IT YO!!!!!! Thanks for introducing mayday to me :) Loves :D katong for lunch/dinner SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

17) Ys.
Thanks for letting me learn such an important lesson (:


18) Last but not least, CK..
I LUB YOU! HAHAHHAHAHA. Thanks for brightening up my life by making an appearance @ the bus stop. heh. and your jokes and chats. Most of the time I just wanna murder you but there are little moments when I am happy chatting with you. THANK YOUUU! See ya at the bus stop tomorrow (:

wa rao still got ppl i wanna thank.. but lao niang is LAO LE. need to sleep now.. continue another time ba.. BYE PPL HAPPY EARLY BDAY TO ME!!!

If I can have one wish for my birthday, I wish to know what u're thinking.

Recently, something triggered me to think of who will be present at my funeral.
haha. funerals. a topic that most people, especially those in the older generation, will want to avoid.
But the people present are those that walked with you till the very end. That is, if you die of age lar.

Family. is a must.
preferably with grandkids ya. hahhaha. or if I have a good life - great grandkids =P
and friends.

But.. which friends?
I can name a few offhand now - those whom I really considered as close friends.
But that is now. who knows what will happen in the next 50 yrs?
I might lose contact with them, though it's kinda scary to think of the possibility now.
Imagine your current bestiest friend - alive and doesnt even know that you've passed away.

THAT seems tragic.
But possible.
*shudders*

Think [Sex and the City]. Carrie, Samantha (fav! <3), Miranda and Charlotte might be super "gum" now, but can one safely say that their friendships will not fall out in the next, say, 20 yrs? that they will be friends FOREVER?

Forever is hard work.
Especially when you are at different locations and have totally different lives, schedules and commitments.
Yet it's not impossible. We just have to maintain and treasure the friendships that we have with each and every of our friend. yeaaa. jia you.



Which of the friends you have now can really walk to the end of life with you?


p.s: abv is smth bo liao that I thought of while digging my nose. pardon me if it sounds bo liao heh heh.

A letter to my 16 yr old self

Read from Cruz Teng's blog about him writing a letter to his 16 yr old self and I thought that it is fun to write one to my (old) self too.

Dear young pH,

And so your 16 yr old bday is approaching, and you are feeling old and wrinkly and fat. DO NOT WORRY. Because 7 years down the road, you will be oldER, wrinklER, and fatTER. I am not trying to scare you here. So if you want to look betTER, start exercising like, NOW. IMMEDIATELY. Whenever your friends (ky, yq, viv, rl, jason) asked you to exercise, heed their advices please. and do not disappoint them. Most of all, do not let yourself down anymore and start JIAN-fei-ing!

I know that you are worrying about how your olevels will be like and whether you will be friends forEVER with your sec2o2 buddies. dont worry. All will be well :) You will get into your dream course and get to know extremely WONDERFUL friends who will be there for you - though you'll realise that you are not really cut out for your dream course.

As for your sec2o2 buddies, a smaller group call "MOCHI" will be formed, and you will continue to stay in contact with them, and even plan trips with them. So dont fear of losing your friends. You might feel kinda weird that most of them went into JC and UNI and you.. poly and then pt uni. Despite the differences, you will still be you, maybe just not as happy as before due to the responsibilities of an adult (sigh).

In 2004/2005, something will happen with you and one of your best friends & her exbf. DO NOT INTERFERE. I REPEAT. DO NOT. It will be one of your biggest regrets of the next 7 yrs. Moreover, everything bad between them will be over and she is currently happy. So please dont do anything and that will help to salvage the friendship.

In 2006/2007, you will be displeased about how irresponsible one of your groupmates is. JUST. VOICE. OUT. You can throw whatever temper you are capable of throwing, but just say whatever you are feeling instead of trying to care about that person's feelings. It might aid in the current situation, though I doubt that it will help much. But at least, you tried, and you voiced out your frustrations.

In 2007/2008, you will get to know a group of great friends from an online forum. Try not to get yourself hurt from one of them, though I dont think you will heed your own future self's advice.

After your poly, dont even think of trying for local ft uni. NO NEED WASTE TIME LAR. just enjoy working with your temp colleagues and nice friends - limei, valerie, benson, jie ying, jing yi, yi feng & weimin. they are people whom u will always remember from your first FT job.

You will then get a job at a respectable company in Singapore and though the pay basically sucks, you will make wonderful, WONDERFUL colleagues whom you will call FRIENDS (: It must be something excellent that you have done in your past life to have such colleagues and please do treasure them!

In 2009, there will be a crisis in your family and through it, you will learn to be stronger in times of crisis, as well as treasure and love your family more. You will also find yourself depending on the rest of the family for support - especially your siblings. They may seem noisy and useless and ARGHHHHHH! now, but trust me, they will always be the ones who are there for you though thick and thin. And dont worry, everything is fine as of 27/5/10, so there is nothing you should worry about (yet).


OH and please stop thinking of DM. 7 years down the road, he will turn into a little sparkle of the past. AND sorry to disappoint you, he will be happily attached and -uglier-. Oh well, life goes on.


Lastly, learn to accept vulgarities and embrace the wonderful of profanities :) You will love sprouting them, especially in times of despair and frustrations. It helps to ease the tension in you. So go ahead free free (it's free anyway) to slam as much profanities as you want, just not in front of your family - out of respect.


Love,
the older pH.


p.s: you will still looooove purple.
p.p.s: pls start listening to MAYDAY SONGS and memorise their lyrics. it will come in handy at their future concerts =P

The feeling of ISoWannaShitButIHaveSoMuchToDoThatIHaveNoTimeToShit..


IS TERRIBLE.
Really.

Some people.. are meant to be acquaintances.
forever.

Today (21st may, Fri) is a fulfilling day. and I mean REALLY fulfilling.

Morning FA paper. omg bu yao shuo le.
Then after that, back to co. to visit the colleagues awhile.
And Lunch with mama after that @ Bishan.
Followed by katong with senior LD and he accompanied me to cut my fringe.
THEN met up with Resa, cheny, rl and jason for a fun-filled night of food + ktv.

Tmr will be ktv with colleagues + xiao zhu concert.
Sigh. why did my life turn exciting when I am having exams?

one more week... and i will be free!

And so I met up with Senior LD again yesterday and we talked about his upcoming taiwan trip.
omgggggggg he makes me wanna buy a tix and fly there with him lOl. but due to work and my EXAMS (damn!), I cannot just throw everything here and fly over.

sigh. the responsibilities of an adult ;P

PI LAR. if i have the money i'll fly over right after my last paper lor.
screw the responsibilities HAHAAHHAA.
but since aku is a poor girl, I shall concentrate on saving up for my sch fees and the dec tw trip with mochi :D

alright. i shall stop dreaming and think of how i want to start my revision *headache*
this coming week is gonna be busy, with bro's graduation ceremony + mom's bday celebration on tue, a play on wed, the deadly FA paper on Friday and XIAO ZHU's (!) concert on Sat :)

It beats me why I can still commit to a play AND a concert when I have 3 deadly papers haunting me.

oh well.

oh and I really feel like getting an iphone yo.
not cos the rest of the world has it, but cos of its convenience and the luxury of lying on bed AND surfing the net at the same time = shioks to the max.
been doing that on my itouch recently and argh it makes me itch more to get the iphoneeeeeeeee.


$$$$$. why doesnt it fall from the sky?

Yesterday night definitely goes down the history of unforgettable nights in pH's life.
HAHA.

Sales dinner.
Alcohol.
red eyes and red + hot faces.
champagne.
white wine.
red wine.
v.v.v.v. nice beeeeer.
nice dessert but was too giddy to really enjoy it.
full to the brim.
chio bus.
shuai ges.
lots and lots of laughter.
the surprise award.
vomit (not mine!)
giddy-ness (lots of it!)
random smses and calls to my friends at 1am in the morning (omg i am soooo sorry if u are one of them who kena-ed from me!!!)

in a nutshell, a fun-filled night (:

We actually left the place at 1130pm, when all of us were still in control of ourselves, just very very high. Then someone (i forgot who) suggested going back for more (free) drinks when none of us could get a cab. AND WE DID!! omg. hahhaha. it was crazY~

Am really thankful for this bunch of colleagues.
Despite some of us throwing up and drunk, we stood by one another through it all :))
Specially thanks to Maggie for being the only one who was 100% sober and taking care of our belongings/ making sure all our stuffs are together and mking sure we are okay. hahahha.
WHO SAYS RADIO AD ADMIN DOESN'T HAVE TEAMWORK YO?
THAT, is true teamwork (though maggie is not with RAA anymore la hahahhahaa)

To clarify, aku wasnt drunk ok hahhahaha. just very giddy and EXTREMELY GIDDY.
and this is going out to the staff at Regent Hotel as well as these 2 other colleagues who dont know us AT ALL and yet accompanied us right to the end - My deepest appreciation for all that you have done for us :)
Oh and to my lil bro too :)

you people make this world a better place!


p.s: no more alcohol for the next 1 yr :D

i miss the old ph

firstly, you told me that you have something to say and is feeling vexed (??) about something.
So i asked, "what? is everything ok?"
then you said that you didnt know if you should say.
Follow by, you think you should keep it within you for now cos you need to think somemore about this and will tell me when it is time.
THEN, I told you that I was going to kill you cos u're basically making my heart itchy cos ph the kpo wants to know what happened!!!!

AND you said that you're afraid I cant take the news.
So i told you, suan le, just dont say anymore, i dont wanna know cos it seems like bad news and it will AFFECT MEEEEEE AND MY MOOD.

And so you called me and tell me not to think too much, saying that the "news" has nothing to do with me, and I dont have to worry about it.

OKAYYYYYYY.
So tell me, what should I do next?

Murder seems like a good option (:

dead tired. but fun-filled night.
I miss this kind of laughter with my sec sch mates.. been a long time since we do this kinda crazy stuffs.

From resa's wrkplace to mine to katong to parkway to marina barrage to simpang bedok to home.
The mirror incident, the car incident, the parking-the-car jokes (:

MORE FUN TOMORROW :D

The date of THE first paper is drawing nearer.
and i havent done anything yet -.-
no motivation yo. All i did is work and then go out every day. hahhaha.
ok buck up buck up buck uP!

Procrastination rocks but it is gonna cost me $3k to procrastinate -_-
Roar.
..
LIFE IS SO BORING THESE DAYS!
The most exciting this week will be cheny & resa renting car and us going cruising at.. geylang? haahahahha. i love my friends :D

ok time to sleep.nights

oh great. just calculated my $$ and hahhahahahhaha.
Dont think I even have enough for my next sem sch fees.. piangz

Okay. It seems that I'm kinda neglecting my blog le HAAA.
No time no time...
kinda sian diao and worried cos of money these few days..

School fees + savings plan fees + repay of poly fees + return parents $$ + bills + food + transport...
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. where got enough to pay for my tw fees @ the end of the yr!!! I must go.. cos it might be the last overseas trip with mochi for the next 2.5yrs haa.

Unless my co. raises my pay.
Or I find a job with better pay.
OR i get a pt job (with better pay).

anyway has any money sucking ideas?
sigh =(

I want to give myself a pat on my back (:
For not shedding a single tear after it happened.
And for being brave enough to stop what might happen.

To be fair, the other party was the one who started talking cos I didnt know where to start lol.
But ya, despite that, I am still proud of myself :D
COS I FREAKING ACTED NORMAL THROUGHOUT.
Then I realised that I WAS NORMAL! hahaha (duh).
I actually felt relieved more than anything, yo.

The sadness didnt come until after, but yea, thanks to those whom I talked to
(who were online at that time lar.)
You people rockkkkkkkkkk.

And a huge thanks to those who had been there to listen to my nonsenses and craps.
I dont usually sit down and tell people my worries and problems ya.
So please feel honoured. Haaaa.
pH is moving on..

p.s: I was at this sports council yesterday night and I suddenly want to go swimming!!! WHO WANTS TO GO? night swimming please. cos my hideous size cant be shown in daylight. arbo ppl will choke from chlorine and die on the spot.

Do I possess the courage?

Everything should have ended long time ago.
Prolong it = suffers more.

It is easy to do nothing..
The courage is to DO something about it.

Am I brave enough?

I am glad we met up today :)

And thanks to K.N for your concern.
Very the touched lor. hahahahha.

我不想念

歌手：刘若英

"某个城 某条街 某一条小巷
某一个晚上 某阁楼 微微灯光
某个人 默默关上 某心房 某扇窗
跟没有人 说晚安
夜 从前从来没这麽长
床 荒凉的就像没有边疆
失眠 是枕头之上无尽的流浪
天 永远不亮"


"某空港 某车站 某个下一站
某一扇车窗 某风景 唤醒惆怅
某南方 摇摇晃晃 某海洋 某艘船
谁没妄想 有天堂
当 人活成了一棵仙人掌
掌 心的泪却还是滚烫
每当 抚摸那些天真致命伤"


"我不想念 不想念 那时光
那些快乐 和悲伤 却总在我身旁
我只愿长夜将尽天快亮
让想念的歌不再唱
让想念的歌不再伤"

Fab lyrics by 阿信 (:


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Sometimes, I feel that I have full control over myself.
Things that I want to do are all done. Feelings that I want to tuck into a dark corner of my mind.. are done in a blink of an eye.

And sometimes, I feel that I have zero control over myself.
Every single cell in my body says "NO", yet I dont heed my own advice.
Extremely helpless. Cos it's like a war between myself and myself.

I miss my teenage years. lol.

Anyway ah bu and I were talking about how one yr just passes by like that.. Soon I'll be in yr2 of uni liao. haaaa.
Cant wait for these 3 years to be over.. working ft and studying pt is making me bad tempered, helpless, tired, poor and UGLY ):

Random thoughts

So many things undone...
and all due in one week's time.
Sigh.

someone help me...

I wanna press the undo button haha.
But where is it?

Dream job.. but not up to it.
Try? or dont try?

I loveeeeeeeeeee gossip girls omg.
Someone pls watch 3rd season like, SOON, and discuss with me =]

work is piling up.. and up.. and up..
and instead of helping, u are bringing our? my moral lower.
Counsel my foot. dont u know.. u are the reason why things end up this way? sigh.

I need to escape.

Interesting new found friend. very interesting.
Turns my beliefs upside down haha.

I miss FULL TIME schooling days.

I need $$ to pay off the poly and uni fees.

ok time to stop emo-ing and sleep.
BYE xD

The cramp is getting worse T.T

Someone kill me pleaseeeee

sigh.
jia you ph.

The best friday of this year (so far)

And so, he finally sees my point and things are back to normal (:
you have no idea HOW GLAD I AM!!
Despite all that happened, I still want us to be buddies =)
nth more.

__


Woke up at 2pm today :D
Okay la in between I woke up, replied sms, and fell asleep.
WHAT A GOOD FRIDAY :DDD
BUT... seeing how hard my sissy is working on her sch work is bugging me to START on mine as well.. :(
Tonight. I promise.

I WANNA EAT 85market de food!! Tang Yuan~~~ PORRIDGE~~~~
=(


Oh and do read THIS BLOG when you have the time. No time also must read ok! The way he thinks is incredible (:

And so there is a big hoo-haa about R.Low on 987 these few days.
LOL. Seriously hoping it's some april's fool joke man..
let everything return back to normal please.

Been skipping lessons due to work for the past one week.
THIS IS A NO NO.
I swore never to skip lessons due to work and look what I did - twice in a week?
sigh. This is making me re-think on my priorities...
Hopefully everything will turn out alright..

Will have to take this long weekend to catch up on the lessons I missed.. sigh.

And a happy advanced apr fool to everyone :)
Hope no one gets fooled. lol.
night world.

4 more months..

Bro got accepted into NUS! :D

I know i keep saying this everywhere hahahhaa..
But really. cant help but feel proud of him.. cos of how far he had come :)

When we were young, his results were bad. like REAL BAD.
If I remember correctly, he actually got 10+ marks out of 100 for one of the subjects (think it's chinese or english)..
and my parents thought that well, he is just non-study material
(everyone had hopes on me and look how I turned out T.T)

Anywayyyyy, he managed to squeeze into express class in sec school. and in upper sec, his results were better. Cos his maths saved him, i guess. I forgot how much he got for Olvls, but i clearly remember feeling a sense of relief that he got into Poly. lol.

Then BOOMZ. He suddenly changed into another person. I can still recall his first yr in poly, when he told me about his results. I was like, WAOOOOOO o.o shocked cans.

We had all underestimated him hahahhahaha.
I guess it's cos he found what he loves to do ba.
To think I was still nagging at him to "go study, dun play games liao!" when he first started poly. lol. who am i to lecture him man Lolll

His hard work has paid off. and now he is going to uni, yoooo.
Anyway the way he delivered the news was sooo... cool -_-

I reached hm @ around 12+am due to work (YES AGAIN).
Went into bro's rm to say HiIIIIIIIiii.
and he said, "我进NUS leh"
me: "OMG 真的吗？？？？？？？？？？？？ 什么course？？？？？？？？？"
him: *mumbled some course abt computing systems with a straight face*
me: OMGOMG GONG XI NI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
him: continue playing his game with the equally straight face.

-__________________________-|||||
expressionless cans -_-

so cold. no wonder no gf =X

p/s: that was part of the conver la. I cut out those boring parts abt "MOMMY KNOWS LE MA? PAPA KNOWS LE MA? I AM SO PROUD OF U! IS THAT THE COURSE U WANT?"

ok time to sleep.
I hope the fly that flew into my bedrm light is either dead or aslp. COS LAO NIANG wanna sleep and I sleep below the light.
later it flew out and INTO MY MOUTH HOW?
tmr cant tk MC lehs! cos xR on leave! hahahha


p/p/s: I dont know why i so happy till machiam I am the one who got into nus HAAAA. mayb it's cos.. the next best thing to not achieving smth is having your love ones achieve it.

Hope sis can get in too =(

incorrigible!!
Horrible to the max. T_T
someone pls kill that #$%^&* for me.

Responsible.
That's the word that I will never describe you.
YOU MACHIAM LIKE ANOTHER LAWREN* LAR!!!!!


*lawren is someone whom im ashamed to call ex-colleague.
.
.
.

Then cheny came and spoil my angry mood with pics of taiwan and I SUDDENLY CANT WAIT FOR DEC TO COME!!! *jumps ard*

SO HAPPY!
Cos firstly, my cor100 assignment is finally done!
Managed to submit it 10min before deadline. heh.
First time submit sooooo late lor..

2ndly, tmr is ktv session with (part of) mochi yoooo.
Miss you guys :D

3rdly, he is finally talking to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thought have to wait a few days more for him to finish the proj..but today jiu ok le! hahahaah.
((:

tmr will be a good day. bye world!


p.s: the "he" in "he is finally talking to me!!" does not refer to the person in below this entry. that person, can go eat shit for all i care. -_-

Been thinking lots of... angry stuffs just now.
and now I make myself so mad that I cant sleep.
zzzzz.

tmr have to wake up early to START and FINISH my assignment..
double zzzzz.

I realised how much I've changed over the past 3 months.
I care more about my own feelings now instead of "aiya nvm la others happy can liao."
nope, pH is not like that anymore.
If you wanna contact me to talk about YOU only and totally ignore (YES, IGNORE) and keep saying you busy and then DONT ever give me a date when you are free so that we can come out to talk about ME AND MY ISSUES, then forget it. you are off my priority list.

Okay just re-read the above sentence and it sounds kinda confusing.
nvm i understand can liaoz.

And I feel so pathetic wanting to talk to you SO much about the stuffs that I was going through, cos I thought that you, of all ppl, will understand.
And yet you disappoint me again and again.
The last straw was ignoring me on msn for the 2749576385th time when we chat halfway.

Since you have so many friends, it wouldn't hurt to lose one.



night world.

I realised that I have nothing to blog abt! haha.
These few days have been mundane- apart from yesterday's Singapore Radio Awards.
lol.
Cheryl and I were bad-mouthing this DJ and then we found out (through esther, i think) that the ppl sitting in front of us are his fans/friends.
whooops :p

but cant blame us what.. what we said abt him is TRUE LOR =X

okay i just complained to sis that I have $32 left in my bank.. then 3min later i dozed off hur hur. Me is that tired...

ok bye world. time to sleep

I am still aliveeeeee

Was chatting with an old old friend just now and waoooo, to my amaze, he hasnt changed.
at all.
The last time we chatted was like, 5yrs ago? hahahaha.
he is still as rich, and still as.... "色" is the correct word :P
not to me, of course. to other girls. but oh man, I MISSED TALKING ABOUT GIRLS WITH HIM!!!! =/
Great, now I sound like a lesbian. hahahaha.

THe sickening Law ECA (end of assessment) is finally over...
managed to finish it after 12hrs at the exact same location (in mama's house).
wa damn er xin cans.
Special thanks to Mama (for lending her house and pia-ing tgr alllllll the wayY~~~), Jackey (AGAIN!!!-> owe him alot =P) and YS (tips!) for the help they rendered.
arbo I'll confirm cry till dont know where liaos.

Now, is full force for effective comms's assignment.
YQ PLS STAND-BY. PH NEEDS U TO PROOFREAD HAHHHHAHA.

What will i do without these great friends in my life? =D


Hopefully can finish on time then I can enjoy my dinner on Sat, yo (:

For now, it's time for bed.
SRA (Singapore Radio Awards) TMR! need to make up sianz. Not me take prize make up simi saim, right? oh man the sentence before this is so LOW CRASS.
bye

ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
ROARRRRRRRR@#$%^&*()_
ROARRRR@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@



just feel like venting

Blogging.. is making me sadddd.
These days when I blog, it's all about how tired I am.. how frustrated, angry, pek chek I am about stuffs. But the anger only lasts a few hours at most. And after that, when I come back here to read what I posted, I'll feel guilty for posting those stuffs. Then I will del those entries muahhahaha.

Aiya. quarter-life crisis? I dont know.
Or mayb stress in school and at work ba.
I just feel so..... angry these days.
Lucky for the friends who are constantly damn funny and make me laugh lol.
and the new colleagues who are so cute and funny~ Not that I dont miss the old bunch..

Sissy is on her way to korea now. lol. first time on plane yo. bet she'll have lots of stories to tell when she is back =) and she claims that she is going to marry her darling jae joong (OMG I KNOW HOW TO SPELL HIS NAME) at korea and wun be coming back anymore.

Yawns. if she can locate him, that is.
I doubt that freaking-plastic-surgeried-white-guy will want a fat girl with 2 moles on her face and two huge nostrils as his gf la =P
Sorry sissy heehhee (not that she'll read this anyway. so im SAFE :))

My newest hobby is shooting my sissy, as u can see in fb and here =)
so fun! she always squeals and hits me on my fat arms. WAHAHHAHA.
then i will hit her back on her (equally) fat arms and she'll scream at me at the top of her lungs.

oh man cant believe i miss her liao. HAHHAHAHH.

ALright. time for bed. tmr is chiong law day.
grrr.

Home on Saturday.
Kinda shiok, minus the mommy nagging part hahha.
but aiya, was chionging proj the whole day -_-

and I cant help but complain again.. I AM SOOOOO TIREDDDDDDDDDDD.
wa lao eh. worked till 5am this morning with xr.
we are so ming ku la... =(
Life is going to get worse....
sigh.

Anyway, got to get back to assignment.
Cant wait to watch Dear John :)

John is not my Dear

I wanna watch Dear John!

I have cute friends. I set my msn nick as smth like.. "Dear John".
Then my friend John came and asked me why I call him dear. HAHAHHA.
And my cousin asked me if I miss our uncle (whose name is John). LOL.
Then a couple others came and ask me something like, "YOU HAVE BF LE AR?" or "WHO IS JOHN????"

HAHAHHAHA. it is obvious no one heard of the movie =( HOW COULD ALL OF YOUUUUU...
It's nicholas sparks' book-made-into-movie lor.
and the male lead is exactly how I picture him to be while I read the book.
hoho.

Anyway, joke of the day: Mom pronounced "Novena" as "Ribena".
*smacks forehead*

okay, back to assignments.
im a slacker -_-

Wishing everyone a....

Happy ROAR-ING Chinese New (Y)ear! =P

OKOK I know that the look on my face is machiam like I having terrible cramps/stroke and this pic looks like a FAILED green tea ad. Nevertheless, hope that everyone will huat after seeing this pic ar! =X (I'll 偷笑 if you dont have nightmares tonight hur hur.)

Oh and I know this post is kinda belated la cos CNY is almost 1wk gone liao. but better late than never, right? LOL.

I LIKE MY HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love these girls :)

One of the rare times where all of us are present :)
The next time that this happens is at least one yr later =(
NAT I AM GONNA MISS YOU!!!!!!!!! (when u leave for aussie)
TIFF TOOO!!!! (when u go tw for exchange)
KIT TOO!!! (when u go tw for exchange)
JIES TOO!!! (when u go for your grad trip)

i am the only one stuck in sg throughout HAHAHHA.
Love you girls and the crazy times :)
Let's go Timbre for duck pizza one yr later k :D

And I am gonna highlight my hair purple so that it wun drop out! Like how my purple hair extension drop out like that. zzzz. so u all wun have reason to laugh le. LALALALA~

I have never disliked English so much.
But I will complete it! Jia you!

My new idol. lol.

DAMN NICE CANS!



The last part is he composed himself de... WA~~





Love this song man. My current loop~

解脱了~
Felt a sense of relief wash over me as I put an official end to all these shits.
Ya la, sad la. Hurt la. heartache la.
But all these will pass de.
I wanna give myself alot of pats on my back for doing the right thing :)
I know that you all also wanna gimme a pat on my back.
lai lai. mai shy :P

NOW, I have to concentrate on my assignment arbo I really will die this sat.
MAMA, JIA YOU TOO!!!

my gosh. i was gonna "indulge" in some serious self pity but one of my friends managed to make me damn high for god-knows-what-reason.
and now I'm so high that I cant do my assignment AHAHAHAH.
I gave my free movie tix to the siblings for nth. argh. cos they reaching hm liao and I havent done anything. bleahz.

alright. back to work.!

Ashin's blog is damn cute lar pls go read it. e link is on my sidebar =P

How good it'll be if I can pluck my heart out, squeeze all the aches and sadness out, and stuff it back.

It really sucks to know the right person at the wrong time.
Sucks big time.
No matter what, I must endure. For the sake of me. and you.

I feel so drained.. -_____-

blackberry

Reasons that I should NOT even THINK about buying a bb:

1) None of my friends has it, thus no one can BBM (blackberry message) with me
2) Data plan = Ex sia!
3) I just renewed my singtel plan -_- cos of my sissy
4) No $$
5) NO $$!! (have to post this twice to remind myself AGAIN)
6) I still love my current phone and it's still working well
7) it's not purple
8) it's freaking ex
9) Need to save for school fees
10) I dont need it =)

Ok la. even if I wanna buy I also have no $$ -_-|| Already have probs with $$ for my 3 meals liao.. let alone a new phone. HAAAA.

cant wait for the 1-wk break during CNY week. But before that we are gonna slog our asses off. aarghh. hate it.

Went to put a strand of purple hair extension yesterday.
Loving it lots :D
I thought that mommy was going to scold me..but OMG SHE DIDNT!
She just called me "hiao char bor" and didnt comment after that.
waoooo. The perks of being a grown up. haha.

I really should buck up and start "molesting" my books abit.
haaa. Really really should, before I get into deep shit like how I got into the deep shit of stats last sem. argh.~

very tired. go sleep liao. bye.

p.s: Just tell yourself that you are satisfied and happy, and u really will be.

FINALLY survived this weekend yo.
It's disastrous to go for lessons with fever and bodyache. and damn disgusting cos I was struggling to keep awake + pay attention + absorb as much info as poss + tk notes + make friends all at the same time. zzzz.

Luckily my group mates seem nice! and one of them is my ex-colleague's sister! The world is super smallllllll. Plus I really think it's fated haha.

There's SOooooooo much reading to be done. sighsighsigh.
I must remember that I CHOOSE to take this path, so I shall enjoy it =)

First lesson tomorrow!
One minute I'm excited, another min, terrified.
Sigh.

Morning lesson on Sat. Then Amei concert
Then Sunday = work day.

And Monday = work + school day.

Totally no life cans?

Met up with a senior recently.. and realised how much both of us have changed. I'm still not sure if it's a good or bad thing haha. But we're able to talk to each other more comfortably compared to a few yrs ago. So it should be good, right? :)

And oh yea! The mayday tix are confirmed!! *JUMPS ARD*

oh I am being so random.


我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦 那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水
我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂的世界
如果是你 发现了我
也别将我挽回...

Dreamt that..

I was in the living room then our whole building started spinning. At first I thought that it was my head spinning, till my sis commented that our building is really spinning. zzz.

The building then broke away from the ground and fell off a cliff (???) and head for the ocean. Sissy and I ran to the storeroom (??) to reunite with our parents and bro. We hugged one another tightly and prepared for the worst. It was then alot of things came to my mind at once - all my besties, friends, colleagues.. the people I love. I started to sob and suddenly burst out "观音娘娘! 谢谢你一直以来的照顾。 我们要死了!!" Then I could hear the waves crashing into our house and I prepared to take one last breath before I die......


and then I could hear ahshin singing "起来" on my hp alarm. =/

Woke up crying and after I told mom what happened, she laughed her head off. Especially the part when I thank guan yin niang niang. WA LAO funny meh! I thought it was real one okay. I was scared for like a few hours before I slowly got over it -_-

Anyway mommy says it's good to dream about water and wants me to buy 4D... piangz.

I think I need a vacation ^^


*******


TODAY is the last Sunday I can sleep in cos school ****ARGHHHH***** is starting tomorrow. But I have no lessons tmr. wahhahaha. My classes are on Mondays and Fridays! double ***ARGH*** The worst thing is, there're lessons on alot of sat mornings too.......... so someone kill me pls. The only time i can go out is Sats liao. unless some kind soul (KY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) wanna meet me after school on Friday :D

五月天 [DNA創造演唱會] Encore @ S’pore Padang!!

17 Apr faster come!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Pity those who like SHE AND Mayday hahhaah.
Confirm in a dilemma on which one to go for.

My stupid senior says wanna go together but PS ME!! cos he wants to buy cheaper de.. Zzzz. neh mind we can go jam hsiao and jay chou concert tgr LOL. (IF I FIND THE $$ TO GO).

还是 JIKIT 最好 =D

Mayday @ Taipei countdown!!

part 1



part2

<3 masa~~~~~

part3


part4



cant wait for their concert to comeeeeeeeeee

Refer to entry below on "no need to spend money".
argh. like real. cos i spent $300 on my hair and CNY clothes today!!!!!
Nvm la. i sorta love my hair lol.

For those who dont know, whenever I cut/do smth to my hair, I'll cry or feel like crying after the whole process. But this time I dont have the feeling ^^ and MY PAPA SAYS MY HAIR LOOKS NICE, YOOOO. Even bro said smth like, "this suits you." HAAHHA.
The men in my family praised me = it's really really an okay hairstyle ^^

Not attaching any pic cos I am not zilian to tk pic of myself hahhaa. plus not chio la tk for wad. I wait till my sissy tks pic of herself den i shall CHAP in and make her tk with me =) she permed her hair btw ahhaha. Looks kinda cute on her, smth that I can never carry off. ROARR.

Ok time to go bathe and watch tv!! got tw countdown concert!!! but dont tink got mayday lar.
BYE!

p.s: cant wash hair for 2 days! dont come near me during this time!!!!!

米修!~ 米修!~

if you wanna know what the two words mean, go watch [下一站，幸福]
Super nice cans!!!!

With this show and 海派甜心 keeping me occupied, there is no need for me to go out and spend money hahhahaa. been watching abit of the 妻子的诱惑 too cos mom and sis are "chasing" the dvd series which my aunt lent them. damn exciting lar! the slamming and drama-ish part just past today, and i sat there for a good 3-4hrs watching them scream, shout, beg, blackmail. woots.

Sigh. such a good life I have now. but good things dont last lar. come 25th Jan it'll be back to SCHOOL. and work. and school. and work. BO LIFE SIAAAAA... ARGH.

alright back to my shows =)

the end

Everything has come to an end even before it started.

But I am proud of both of us for making the right decision :)
Now we just have to keep to the decision haha. Which is not gonna be an easy task o..

If what we concluded is correct, why does it still hurt, yo?


Jia you ba.!

I dont want my birthday to come!

In another exact 5 mths, I'll be 23 o.o
omgggggggg!!!!
I told my mom that and she said that i'm going to be mid-twenties.
NO! that's another two years!!!!

Then she went on and on about how i should buy facial stuffs to prevent my skin from getting wrinkles and not eat pizza (read: jies and kit. I told her we ate DAMN NICE duck pizza at timbre and I wanna bring her there to eat next time.. and this is what I got in return. sigh.) and eat healthier food. all those words come from my mom, who just reached home at 1am from her almost-nightly teh-tarik and roti prata session with her friends -_- Say people, say yourself first :p

Timbre is really damn nice lo :D This cool guy played the drum pad thinggie with his feet, played guitar and sang at the same time! super li hai. Let's go back to see him leh :D

School is starting in 2weeks' time. I am so not looking forward to it man.
sigh. I still have alot of shows to watch and alot of things to do..!

I might lose a friend today.. but I hope that you'll be happy no matter what happens.



we shall see..

Re: New Year resolutionSSSSS

XR reminded me that I should add another New Year resolution.

Therefore, updates as follows:

1) Get at least 3 As out of 5 mods. A minus also counted la =x DO NOT HIT a C. C = 死!!
2) Work towards the weight target that xr set for me ^^
3) Save enough for upcoming semester's sch fees!!!!
4) Do not spend on unnecessary things (save $$!!!)
5) Reduce usage of vulgarities =X

There! =X

Back to work -.-
Reality hasnt hit me... yet. hahahha.
There was a crisis this morning and I was sooooo relaxed. bleahh.

Anyway, it's a wonder how someone can just make your day with a few sms and emails (:
Thanks to the friends that I have in my life.. you all rock man~~~

School's starting in less than 3 weeks! HELP! I dont have enough fun yet!

海派甜心 is so nice cans! I love 达浪 (I hope I wrote the name correctly lol.) and rainie is so cute~~~~~
Okay I'm going crazy. cos work ends in less than 30mins and I dont have to stay late today (prays hard) ^^

Happy twenty-ten!!

Loads of "Firsts" to start off the new year :)

First time stepping into a Casino - I dont really like it cos people just throw thousandSSss to gamble when I need to slog like a COW to earn $1k+. Roar. Plus I dont really fancy gambling in general. On top of everything, when we first stepped into the casino, we were consumed by the smoke from cigarettes = stained my clothes and hair and bag. I smelt like a burning cigarette hahahhaha. What I like is the free milo though :p

First time counting down to a new year overseas - Not the first time counting down with the mochi gang though. We've been doing that since we were 17 or 18 I think haha. But this is the first time we shifted the countdown location from orchard/chalet/hotel to GENTING! Wooooots.~ It was crowded. BUT WE DIDNT SWEAT! cos the weather was freaking coooooooool =D Plus there were no bang**** =X One bad thing is that cos it was so misty, we couldnt see much of the fireworks! BOOHOOS. But it was fun doing the group hug and shouting "HAPPY NEW YEAR!!" hahaha~

First time not going to theme park in Genting - everytime I went I'll confirm go theme park de.. but we didnt go this time LOl. and it still feels kinda weird. like I forget to do something :s

First time going into the FISH SPA - It is apparently cheaper in KL (I think). So we went city sq and let the fishes bite away the 死皮 from our feet. BUT WHY IS IT SO TICKLISH?!?!??!?!?! I swear I nearly died okay. After kicking the water and screaming and hitting myself and hitting viv and hitting the shop assistant (YES HER TOO), and swearing and refusing to put my feet into the water, I FINALLY put my feet into the water and let the fishes bite for 5mins, all the while hitting my leg to let the pain minimise the ticklish feeling. oh and thinking of DM helps abit too. *blush*. Then the ticklish feeling was so overwhelming that I had to wiggle my feet and lift them out of the water before I commit suicide. To anyone who thinks that I am exaggerating, I AM NOT! I think if you want me to so smth for you, just tickle me and I'm your slave, yo.

Ok that was all the first times I guess. To mochi- we passed the "test-the-friendship" trip with flying colours! ^^ Love you all lots lots :D

To the rest of my besties - happy new year! me love you all lots lots too =D
let's work towards our resolutions and most importantly.. HUAT AR! =P

Oh and GET GOOD GRADES FOR SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!


p.s: 2010 will be a good year :) I can feel it in my bones. HAHA.
p.p.s: pics from the trip will be up once kY posts them!!!!