I'm blogging this cos most of you who reads this, knows what's going on already..
And there's nothing to hide, yoooo.

So much has happened since a few days ago...
But I will be strong.. for my family.
Especially ah bu, who tries to act tough but fails everytime she talks about it.
It's kinda comical, in a sick way. when she turns on her watertap, i'll start and my sissy will follow suit. lollll.
Kinda comical, but come to think of it, not. funny. at. all.

It hurts to see him in a weak condition.. He's my papa, the guy who protects the whole family.. how can he be sick?! He seems so small on the hospital bed... If I can transfer his pain to me, I'd gladly PAY to do it man. But I cant.. and what makes me wanna cry this instant is that.. this is just the beginning. Hope it gets better.. if worse.. then we'll see what we can do..


one thing I learnt is to pretend.
Read from somewhere that if you pretend that nothing is going on, that everything is alright, for that very moment, at least for a while, EVERYTHING will really seem alright.
Sounds logical? hahhaa. i dont know.
But can see that we're all trying that now. I mean, we cant possibly harp on this topic 24/7. no. 1: it's depressing. no. 2: no matter how hard it is, there're still things to laugh and joke about.

I mean, why make others sad with you when you can be happy with them? right?
If wanna cry, just cry alone ba.
As i said, I have to be strong in front of my family.. so no more crying in front of them, pH.


Lastly, thanks for all your jia yous/wishes..
We will de :)