Sometimes I wonder.. Am I that difficult to talk to?
Why does my Sissy ignore me/gave me short and rude answers whenever I tried talking to her?
It is really frustrating talking to her nowadays..
Even mommy is feeling helpless too.. I can see that..
It's like she's giving up on my sis.. but cant blame my mom la.
She has been trying to talk to my sis for years.. and didnt succeed.
we've long ago labeled her as, "她是这样的.. bo bian".

Then I realised that.. she has been telling my bro alot of her suffs (through msn cos he's at shanghai now ma). Stuffs that she'll never tell me in a million years.
I tried to talk to her.. get her to open up and stuffs.. and she ignores me.
But now.. knowing that she opens up to other ppl when my mom and I here are trying sooo hard to talk to her.. that fucking hurts man.. plus the way she treats her friends are totally from how she treats her family. That alone can make me want to murder her while she's sleeping -_-||

But I know.. I should be thankful that at least she's opening up to someone, instead of feeling a sense of helplessness and uselessness for not being able to communicate with her..

Sometimes I really feel like treating her the way she treats me all the time, just to let her have a taste of her own medicine. ARGH damn pek chek!!


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Been slacking for the past 2 days.
One work to describe - SHIOKS.
Oh man I miss this rest-during-the-weekend times =(
Slept (almost) the whole day yesterday, watched 2 movies, then went to k with colleagues ^^
Today is still sleeping and movies. hahahha.

Yes yes I know.. I should study abit.
So I'm gonna read the first chap of my mgt textbook after I bathe.
But oh man, current life is good man.
Next next week is back to hectic schoolwork life..sob.